decisions decisions decisions

It seems as though, the sooner the wedding approaches I can't make any decisions. The biggest decision that I am struggling with is the guest list. From the beginning Brandon has always wanted a small wedding, but I have always pictured having my friends and family I love most be at my wedding ( which we both have a big family and friend circle). So here is the issue.......Brandon wants a small wedding, I don't. My parents said that they would give us money for a house if we cut the wedding list by a lot. OK- let's step into reality here, IT WON'T HAPPEN. Like I said, Brandon and I both have large families, the guest list right there with family alone would be over 100 people. A small wedding to me is um....like 50-80 people. THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN! So- through out my days I somehow always come to the issue of the guest list. Whether I am at work, school, home, driving, wherever it may be, it always comes up in my head. Some days I think, -oh yeah, lets cut back the guest list and take the rest of the money to put down for a house, and then I slap myself and say...HECK NO, ITS IMPOSSIBLE! I just feel that there are a lot of people that I want at my wedding who I truly care about and if I didn't invite them, I would feel bad and upset. I realize that on your wedding day you barely remember anything, you won't say Hi to everyone there, blah blah blah- at least that's what I have been hearing a lot lately, but at the same time, I realize that, but knowing that they were there on my special day means a lot. I want to make myself and Brandon happy with the guest list issue, but I feel as though that might be difficult. The save the dates are supposed to go out in the next several weeks which means a decision needs to be made in the next several weeks- I don't know if I can do that. AHHHHHHHH! So I know this is silly, but if ya'll could pray for a peace of mind for me with this issue I'd appreciate it.

Now onto another issue, ha ha. I promise I'm really not a crazy messed up person. Lately, everyone I come across has been asking me " where are you going to live when you get married" and my response EVERY TIME is......... I HAVE NO CLUE! ( I made a post about this issue last month I believe) We really don't want to live in an apartment, but it looks like we will be. Which I am OK with, but at the same time the thought of a house is sooooo NICE! I think we found a promising place to live and we are going there tomorrow. My aunt lived in these apartments for a while and she liked them. We can find a 2 bedroom/ 1 bathroom with a patio for DIRT cheap and we are still living in a great area. It's in the neighborhood of Pecan Grove ( for all of you Houston/Sugar Land natives, you know where this is). Anyway, please pray that this works out for us and we can afford the marry life soon.

Hope everyone had a great weekend and have a great monday!